My Buddy Hank

AUTHOR'S NOTE: It is 4:30 and I am vey, very tired and not thinking clearly... please have grace!
Ok, so I dropped my last blog and remembered I wanted to write about something significant. Hank, the "Bible Answer Man" Hanegraaff. The name says it all, doesn't it? What a mark of intelligence on our part to bestow or even condone such a name upon a man. And not to mention His own humility! What a burden... THE Bible answer man!
There is a grossness to me about the false masculine that runs our Church today. I mean a sick gross feeling I get when I think of how clinical and over intellectual we have become and how few people ever seem to think it wrong. Emotions and experience have all taken a back seat becuase they kept trying to drive and no one thought they would get us anywhere. But are our intellects flawless? Men, we are unhealthy. We are full of ourselves and hold the blessing until we are satisfied to give it to our children, and that day often never comes because the real reason we withold it is fear. Dare I say cowardice. We hide behind intellect because we fear our emotion. We write it off as Godly, because it is more easily controlled. Yet our children and wives cry in the shadows because of our tyranny. We rule with an iron fist and a stone heart. We break the spirits of our children and force them to do the same to theirs simply because they don't know better... they only know theology.

Such irony.

Counterfeit revival? How about COUNTERFIET EQUIPPING? That's right... you read it. Why? I'll tell you why, because any Christian Church, teaching, ministry or the like that allows people to consider being mentally educated the equivilent of being spiritually whole is guilty of a "form of godliness but denying it's power". Was it the "Spirit of Education" that fell in the book of Acts? What I mean is that we can be so stupid, we will actually think it right and holy to judge a person's spirituality on how much they know, not WHO they know. We think head-knowledge is gifting. Well, the heart learns, too my friends. It takes two wings to fly and a lot of believers don't even know they are still on the ground. In fact, the healthy ones who have been changed by intense suffering and revelation from God, whose gifting, like Paul says, is evident in people not certificates, often go unrecognized (even scrutinized). Why? Maybe because we are not accustomed to the blood of Christ actually showing itself in any healthy way other than socio-economically, financially (oh, for the "word of faith people", let's call all that "prosperity") or intellectually. No, that is too great a price. No one looks THAT deep. Not now. Not in America. Why bother? Pay "Pastor Bastor" to do that for us! And Hank, my friend... you may be a msart cookie, but we need to talk about WHY people are falling for the counterfiet revivals... what are they missing that even YOUR show can't give them? We all need to look one level deeper... WHY do we do the things we do? Paul brings up that great question in Romans, but who gets the answer?

Psalm 25:14
The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them.

Now, what is the Fear of God? Because the one who knows THAT kind of fear will know God's secrets... maybe even His plans. And the beauty of that is, the ones who are told these things are told only because they are considered by God safe enough not to exploit it; and the ones who would exploit it will most likely never be told. :)

Ok, so God bless you Hank; you must know better.

In the Weeks After

So here I am, weeks after my loss of Ray and my decision to love all mankind and keep "no record of wrongs" and the hits just keep on coming. Now, I almost lost my house because my failing business was costing me too much to keep on life support. We shut Soma's down officially two Saturdays ago, hoping to have a great show of people only to be hit by a huge storm a few days prior and lost electric in the building until... you guessed it, Saturday. No one came for our last night... maybe 5 or 6 people. Most everyone else was out of electric and out of touch for no phones or internet or anything. Does it feel like I made the wrong decision? Not actually. You see, my life has been this crappy for quite a few years, so I cannot say things have gotten worse, just that they have not gotten any better. And this is just the start of it. So, now what?

Though He slay me, yet I will trust Him.

If this sounds trite to you, you haven't suffered enough. If this melts your heart, give me a call because we might make great friends.

I hate life today. I hate that I had no choice to be born and no choice in death unless I commit suicide... yeah right! And I further hate that everything else in between is up for grabs. One can have a crappy birth, a crappy life and a crappy, tormenting death and there isn't a thing someone may be able to do about it except pray to God... and for what? That He would change his mind? Like he didn't notice this issue already? Like He wasn't alrady "working on it" and didn't need another email about it? All that pain a person can endure. What a waste of nerves and feeling. Why bother? So some other person can be affected? Great. Why not share the effect a little balanced with both of them to give the other guy a break? Aw, nevermind... I'm just venting nonsense anyway... He is God; let Him do what is right in His eyes.

This particular post has very little place on this blog. In fact, I may come back and delete it when I wake up and get a little wiser to my ramblings. Hope I did not cause anyone to "stumble"

Alvin out